What changed?

So what went wrong? Why was I a Christian for about 23 years but then changed my mind? The short answer is that in the end Christianity just didn't make any sense to me anymore. I had a strong biblical background. I studied the Bible daily for years, attended Oral Roberts University, and participated at church. I had my doubts from time to time but pushed them out of the way. As long as I kept up the daily Bible study I remained fairly strong as a Christian. What started the slide downhill, though, was when the devotional guide from R.C. Sproul's Ligonier Ministries that I was using arrived late one month. The month started and I had nothing to study. I never got back into the study after that. I know that this sounds real lame, and that I could have just studied the Bible directly but I think I was just barely holding on and that was the final push out of piety.

Sometime after that I quit going to church, and after that I found that the concepts of Christianity, and actually God in general, just didn't make any sense. Lots of people live good lives without God, and lots of people lead bad lives with him. The idea of needing God to explain creation doesn't explain how God came about, and saying that he didn't need a creator seems arbitrary. The story of Adam and Eve didn't seem to be true, and since that covers the fall of man a lot of things after that don't work. Even the part about Jesus was strange. The stories of the resurrection didn't line up, and most people live and die without hearing anything significant about him.

Do I regret my time as a Christian? A bit. I had a lot of happy times and good friends, but I have to deal with having spent 23 years in serious error when I should have known better.